The begining of December

Don't know why but i just got lots of things to say.
Too many things.

I'm upset that I couldn't pay by myself.
I spend so much money to fullfill the dream; it is a dream.
I am so lucky that I can have a chance like that.
However somehow guilts come as well.

I fell down again.
I fell into the hole which makes you feel don't know what should you do next.

I don't feel good.
It's hard to express it in English.
Well, maybe I don't want to say in Chinese.


It's overwhelming.

Time passes; it passes so fast; it passes too fast.
I was chasing, and now what am I chasing?